First Post

Well this is my first post ever. I don't really have anybody to talk to and really don't expect anyone to read this, so this is just to vent. My boyfriend and I are moving to Florida in September and it is really wigging me out. I'm afraid of leaving my family. We all live in Oregon right now, but his family is in Florida and he wants to be near them for a while. I went and visited about a year ago and I really liked the weather. Plus there are way more cool things to do in Florida then Oregon. Well anyways, during the month of May my boyfriend decided to have an online fling with this girl he's known for a while and he was going to leave me because he thought I didn't love him. Well I was really stressed out from work and having really bad anxiety issues. So bad that I was on zoloft and seeing a therapist. He was going to drive back to Florida and visit his parents for a few months and I totally freaked out and he decided to take a plane. A few days after he left I was looking around on his computer and found stuff about how he was going to leave me for that girl and stuff and just totally freaked out, I knew I was messed up but I didn't know he was going to leave me. I'm not psychic, how am I supposed to know theres something wrong if you don't fucking tell me. Anyways I sent like four emails to him in a row, very upset and really mean. Long story short I don't trust him anymore and get really upset when he's on the computer. A condition of us staying together and trying to work it out was that he can't talk to her anymore, but I don't know if he has or not. I've talked to her and asked her, and she says he hasn't, but I don't trust her either. If I ask him, he'll just deny it. I'm afraid to tell him how upset I still am because this all happened over a month ago. Well thats about it. I actually feel a little better now.